I’ve been meaning to write for a long time, but daily life kept getting in the way. It is hard to settle down enough to face the deepest part of myself and find the self that is actually mine. I’ve come to believe that only by locating my origin point—the place I start from—can I see myself clearly and understand what I really want.
At 11:06 a.m. on August 21, 2025, I’m writing this note to mark where I am now. I want to carve out a small space of my own, one where the things I do and live through can be stored as bytes. Someday, when I want to look back at who I was, I’ll be able to retrieve them here. The new website is still under construction. From now on, I’ll begin recording everything little by little.
The point is not to share, and it is not to please anyone. It is to face the truest version of myself and to have somewhere to go when I want to revisit my past. So the essays that follow will be written as they come. I won’t chase beautiful phrasing. I’ll just record. If you happen to find this site and some of the pieces feel too casual, you can close the page without guilt. If something here resonates with you, that is my honor—it at least proves that neither of us is alone. Ha.
There are three reasons I want to keep these notes. First, I want to record and review the real me, whether perfect or not. One day, when I read about a past that has already dissolved, it may give me some clarity and help me see how to walk the road ahead. Second, when I hit the hardest, most painful moments and run into setbacks, I want to see my earlier self in concrete form. That should give me more courage and confidence to face whatever is in front of me. Third, I want Yihan and Yiheng to see something of their dad’s past. Maybe it will give them something to think about. If knowledge and experience are to be passed down, there should be some tangible material left behind; this is the kind of reference I can offer. I won’t ask them to copy it. Everyone has their own choices and their own way to live. I only hope that now and then it might touch a chord somewhere deep in them.
When it comes down to it, the most important reason is still myself. If a person doesn’t take themselves seriously, life becomes rather uncomfortable.
Today is a starting point, an origin point. I hope I can keep coming back here to write and record. And I hope I can remind myself of one simple thing: if you want to do it, do it. Don’t wait.